Thursday, October 11, 2012

Management is NOT for sissies...


Today has been a day like none other I have ever experienced in my brief 30yr existence. I had to terminate an employee today. Nothing leaves you with a bad taste in your mouth quite like ending someone’s livelihood – even if it was the right thing to do.

2012 has been a baptism of fire on the work front. As a young manager I have been confronted with every imaginable management crisis that is common in all business. Just when I thought, “Phew, 3 months to go then 2012 is closed, I’ve seen and done it all” I was hammered with a new kind of crisis. I was away on leave for 3 glorious weeks. No cell phone, no laptop, no communication whatsoever with anything work related. It was bliss! As of today I have been back in the office for 10days, and it’s been a helluva 10 days at that.

I have a philosophy that I try to live by, something my dear granny always says; “azvigonera azviitira; asi azvitadzira azviitira futi”. Loosely translated “he who does well, has done it for himself; but he who has done badly has also done it for himself”. I manage a staff compliment of 33 people. We’re small enough for us to interact more like a family rather than an institution. 2012 has been a year of reckoning, and it’s not been an easy road. My personal mandate,(in as much as it is up to me) has always been to safeguard the welfare of my staff to the best of my ability.

Now anyone who is in management or runs a business will know that the toughest thing out there is dealing with people. It’s a daily training ground (or battlefield), one which I believe is a life-long experience in that, it will never end.  Anyway, upon my return from leave I was informed by a member of my management team that there was scheduled Disciplinary Enquiry into misconduct by an employee. In my (almost) 2 years in charge we’ve only had to pursue this course of action once (the guy got off with a Final Written Warning), so I knew it was serious. Once I was up to speed with the details I knew that should the employee be found guilty it would mean termination. It’s been a long 7 days awaiting the outcome and recommendations from the chairperson. During that time I replayed all possible outcomes and scenarios in my mind. What would I do? Was I capable of carrying out the sanction? A couple of nights I couldn’t sleep, wrestling with the decision I would probably be called to make.

Throughout the week, my biggest frustration has been being put into this position in the first place. I kept thinking “Don’t people grasp that we’re in a recession, people are being retrenched, etc. this is hardly a time to make mistakes, especially those that may result in unemployment”.  I hated that I would have to make a decision that will so drastically alter someone’s life. I hated that in not making that decision it would also drastically alter the culture and character of our company (for the worse - Anarchy would prevail). Is this what “management” was all about? Being the “boss-lady”, “queen-bee”? Yah...I had come face to face with a real ugly reality about being “in-charge”; a lonely reality at that. 

My day today was pretty much messed up from about 10.30am after I carried out the sanction. In my heart I have peace, complete and utter peace that I did the right thing, however it’s a hollow victory. Enforcing discipline although not always pleasant; is absolutely necessary. I’ve learnt today that being the boss means that you must take the good with the bad. That you need to act decisively, because whether I acknowledge it or not – ALL eyes are on me. Of course there will be some fall-out in the next few days, weeks, (strained staff relations etc) but what I can say is that as horrible as this experience was for me, I know that I am all the better and stronger for it.

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